Adrenalin! By Shmuelly Davidoff

 life sometimes feels like you being flushed down a sewage pipe trying to breath healthy air, all you get is disgusting poo all over you, all you want is to be happy, and the g-d that your all trying to work out if he's reall is the one resposible for all this, your right that it feels nasty and how could he do this??


The answer is very simple, mankind has to and actually does serve something or someone all the time, what does this mean, he needs to completely put his mind aside and worship with all his heart this something that hes attracted to or more likely something that comes from somewere above him, someone on a higher level then he is and so he puts his trust fully in him or it, (which pretty much means blind faith) if he doesnt, he is by default worshiping himeself instead, basically he only believes and trusts in himeself, and his own powers, and is scared or is too egotistic to let go of himeself for something or someone else, and becomes very self absorbed and selfish, it becomes a sad story, because he ends up abusing himeself, sexuall abuse, drugs, food, he might try to let go to server and trust something else fully because he was bought up in a certain upbringing but he has a really hard time letting go, he actually sometimes does manadge to let go and feels the fresh air that is there for him but he realizes how hard it is for him to do it, and honesty not pretending, (its very easy to shake back and forward and learn with a loud voice,) it seems impossible, and he feels like a failure, so he begins to fight it and turn his back on it, fighting it to get rid of this challange so that it doesnt remind the whole him how weak he is. 


He has to try very hard to remember the few times he managed to let go and put his complete trust in hashem, its a memory that will be very hard to find because his brain is so poisoned by the shit he thinks about all day... but the memory is still there waiting for him wen he decides to start digging in his pile. 


Hashem wen he sees a person struggling with what hes serving and not focussing on his real and truthful work, because hes scared and doesnt trust the outcome, or a big ego, if he's LUCKY hashem will send him down the sewres to wake him up from a deep sleep hes putting himself it to, ill give you an example, its like smoking a joint, if you smoke a fat joint and then tripped naked and ran in the freezzing cold on a busy city street you WILL 100percent sober up quikly! or if the cops were on your ass also it shakes right back to your normal thinking senses and not this cloud 9 your living in wen your high. Life is like a roller coaster ride in a theme park, it scares the crap out of you, but you feel safe on it you dont say this thing is evil and 'who the f**** wants this as a friend anyway' because you know its friendly and is only there for your entertainment and happiness, it keeps you happy and alive!! adrenaline baby."